nostalgia

It's times like this when i need you in my life, but you're just never there. I don't hate you, But i don't think i can ever see you the same. When i see you, i get weak; i break. I want to be strong, to talk to you. I want to be able to have a father/daughter talk, i want to be able to just chill with you. But thats too much to ask for right? Sometimes, i just can't even call you my dad. Its just too hard; it won't come out of my own mouth. When i see you I don't even bother saying a simple hello because if and when i do... all the anger and frustration will just come back. I want answers, i want to know my other half; im just lost without you. I pray for you every night , and i know theres a reason why God hasn't answered them yet; but i will always anticipate when 'that' day would come. All i can say now is... I miss you.

-i need to get my life back on track-